intense fuzziness
Nov. 8th, 2004 10:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sureiI don't like being political. That's probably because I hate politics and avoid it like the plague, only worse (there are certain advantages to living in the half world). However, this, overheard at dinner, struck me:
"How can there be an uncorrupt judge?"
"There aren't any! Look at the Supreme Court!"
But I'm not going to talk about that. Segue!
I was talking with mine father the other day about 'half world'. Because, truthfully, I'm not living in the real world. I never want to. The real world, as far as I'm concerned, and very loosely defined, means sitting in an office or cubicle, occupied with business. It's not for me. I'd much rather be in the half world of academia, or, even better, what used to be called the demi monde, which included theatre. It's a life where dreams and stories are more important, more real even, than the 'real', outside world.
I love the fuzziness around the edges of my mind when I'm caught up in something. I love it when a performance of mine, however small or unnoticed, makes someone smile, or laugh. I love the way a project intensifies until it becomes my entire world, and nothing else matters. I love the magic that creates, when I know that it's all real.
Lock me in an ivory tower, confine me to the stage, and I won't try to escape. This is what I want to do.
This is my future.
This is my life.
"How can there be an uncorrupt judge?"
"There aren't any! Look at the Supreme Court!"
But I'm not going to talk about that. Segue!
I was talking with mine father the other day about 'half world'. Because, truthfully, I'm not living in the real world. I never want to. The real world, as far as I'm concerned, and very loosely defined, means sitting in an office or cubicle, occupied with business. It's not for me. I'd much rather be in the half world of academia, or, even better, what used to be called the demi monde, which included theatre. It's a life where dreams and stories are more important, more real even, than the 'real', outside world.
I love the fuzziness around the edges of my mind when I'm caught up in something. I love it when a performance of mine, however small or unnoticed, makes someone smile, or laugh. I love the way a project intensifies until it becomes my entire world, and nothing else matters. I love the magic that creates, when I know that it's all real.
Lock me in an ivory tower, confine me to the stage, and I won't try to escape. This is what I want to do.
This is my future.
This is my life.