ups and downs

I'm not sure I'm going to be ready to go back to school when the time comes, given the way I've been letting even things I actually want to do just... slide. Actually, these past couple of weeks have seen something of a backslide in my behavior/attitude: sleeping more, doing less, feeling apathetic/antipathetic about making an effort (to go sing, to go to SCA, to take these actually really interesting online courses...), spending most of my time reading. That does not auger well for things like, you know, real classes, and living alone again. Add in that I've been burned twice, and... well.

To distract myself from this unpleasant business, I've been ripping apart a heavilydiscounted!impulsebuy!beanie baby ostrich. Along the seams, so I can copy the pattern out onto paper and modify it. Into a chocobo. Yes. And I'll reuse the insides in the process.

Then come the tentacles.

I'm not sure how many the teddy should have (they're coming out of its back), or where to put them on the chocobo. And I still haven't found a decent bunny to shoggothize. But yes, this is the project I pledged myself to work on for ciceqi and pyrotechnik.